Holy shit... well I finally got all my Christmas orders done. I've learned some serious lessons this year, like me and poison oak don't get along, but there's been others.
Like time management.
Like if someone brings my ability to work to a crashing halt, I need to put my damn foot down about there are very specific times they can be over and very specific time amounts they can stay. I lost a lot more time than I like to think about to that idiot. Who now is trying to use her boys as pawns to get her into a better housing situation or flown home. Oh and it's everyone else's fault but her own that she's now couch surfing. I feel sorry for her kids. Her...not an ounce. She had four different jobs that she managed to land.... then got too drunk and hungover. I'm sure you can guess how that ended.
I've learned that I've healed a lot this year. I was able to go hiking with two folks I barely knew and had a blast. Nothing triggered. No episodes. Just a good much needed break. I was able to go to a ballet (!!!!), the Nutcracker. I had DR with me of course and a bag with crochet in it. (HA! Thought I left that behind didn't ya?)
I've learned to have less fear of the future. Still have a massive amount, but it's probably half of what it was. Fear as in, whether or not I am capable to learn enough as to the where's and what's I'll be doing in the future are of minor concern.
I managed so far to get through this holiday season with a panic attack. I think it's been at least three or four months since the last one, that's a record. There have been a couple of minor ones that I managed to head off, and no anxiety attacks flaring into a panic attack. Whew. Now that (!) is progress.
I still miss my cat though. =(
And yes for those of you wondering Mace is based on Mindy. Many of the interactions between Lacy and Mace in normal every day to day, are actually things that happened with us at the cabin. Including the bit about band aids needed on the thighs. Ouchz!
I've started writing again. I used to write a lot of that was... let's just say, only DR gets to see that and even then I get a pat on the head. Yeah, that's the best way to sum up his reaction and no, I don't find it insulting. I tend to understand that action a bit better than vocal reactions to that old stuff.
I know I need to charge a bit more for some of the things I make. Like the coats. I think I'll be phasing out a couple of things after New Year's and introducing several new things that are going to go over well I think. Nope, no hints.
We also have a table now. Yes, it's el cheapo fold plastic table from Wal*Mart, but we have a damn table. We have a place we can sit and eat our meals at...instead asian style on the floor....
I still have a few other orders, but I still don't know what to do with myself now that all the Christmas ones are done. Feels weird to be honest. Good, but weird.
We celebrated Yule this Sunday. I managed to make a leg of lamb taste amazing. We threw it into the crockpot with leeks, rice and green onions. I barely tugged on the bone and it came out with no meat left on it. We did stuffed bell peppers with goat creme cheese and veggies. There's enough food left over for another week's worth of meals.
I'm not active on my facebook right now. I'm sad because facebook changed their policies about pages and you basically have to pay after January 2015 for people to see your content. I ain't got that kind of money. I'm sad because a lot of really awesome pages might go bye-bye while I'm gone. I'll have a website hopefully soon though, so that I can stop relying on Etsy and Zibbet.
I AM on ello under Evelyn Stormrose, so if anyone is over there and not already friended me, please feel free, drop me a line too while you're at.
I will have be having two coats at the end of February up for grabs. No clues about the colors, you'll just have to wait and see.
Okay, I've rambled on enough for today. =) See you guys tomorrow.
